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Name: Sabrina
Country: United States
State: New York
Birthday: 3/18/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Writing, drawing, painting-pretty much art in general (except art history, Pratt makes that boring as all hell), coffee, NYC, daydreaming, anything that has to do with the mind and what it's capable of/how it works, astrology, music, theatre, and reading.
Expertise: Drawing, daydreaming, being obnoxiously cute, and whipping up beverages of the coffee kind.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Fashion/Costume
Message: message me
AIM:  UnspokenFarewell
Member Since:
10/16/2004
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| Give me the boy with clouds in his eyes.
You know those types.
The ones who even when they smile,
You see there's something hiding behind those irises and pupils.
Usually it's depression, an emotional wound, or a disorder.
Johnny Depp, Kurt Cobain, and Justin Furstenfeld.
They have that look.
So did he.
Dear Sun do you not notice the darkening skies?
Time is running out.
Make your decision quick,
The world holds its breath for you.
I really do like him.
He makes me forget.
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| Alright so it's a bit delayed,
Freshman year of college has been over for about week now.
So technically summer has begun. God Freshman year went by so fast,
I don't want to grow up just yet.
Sure I got 3 years,
But damn those are going to go by faster.
It was a lot of fun though. Summer,
Summer so far is mehish.
I have no internet at home,
(hence the delay in postaging) I currently have no paying job.
Filled out and turned in 6 applications last week.
Haven't heard anything yet.
I do however, have a non-paying internship,
At Harrisburg Magazine.
I dunno, at this rate, there's a chance this will turn into a job.
Specially since with my new camera, the publisher has fallen in love with photos I've taken. There's other things I'm learning about,
And I'm wondering if it will be:
Drastic times call for drastic measures.
What the hell why not?
Can't get any worse? Intervention road trip?
Maybe.
Sounds like an adventure.
And well if it means an extremely irate couple,
I think it'd be highly entertaining. | | |
| Title sums it up perfectly well.
I feel like this past year has been a time of enlightenment,
And disillusionment.
Realizing things are not what I dreamed.
People are not as good as I thought they were.
Been let down by two people who I thought had great optimism and potential.
Now, failures in my eyes.
Then today on the subway.
Humanity decided to show it's ugly side.
I was sitting next to a Jewish man (Orthidox or Hacidic (sp?)) I believe,
Who was simply eating Twizzlers, with his arms around a bag, not saying a word.
A man gets up to leave the subway train,
Just as the train is stopping he gets up into the face of the Jewish man.
"You know you look fucking stupid in that hat. I'm fucking Jesus your messiah!"
Shouts something in another language. "That means fuck you!" and leaves.
The Jewish man continues to eat his Twizzlers in silence.
I didn't know what to do.
I wanted to cry, saddened by the sheer cruelty.
I had to tame down the rage at this random act of needless hatred.
What the fuck?
Why can't humanity just respect each other?
I'm not asking for everyone to hold hands and love each other.
We're not perfect, that's not gonna happen.
But why can't we just respect the differences.
Fine, you can not like someone cause of what makes them different..
But just keep your damn comments to yourself.
Right after this,
A man got on to sing about love and God.
I was relieved...
Good to balance out the bad.
Then a group of people got on and started giggling and making snide comments.
And my hope faded out again.
I sense a poem spawning from this,
I think I'll call it Juxtaposition.
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| I'm pretty.
I'm a nice girl.
I have at least some intelligence.
I understand guys need their guy time.
Why the fuck am I still single?
(along with about every other girl I know)
Why was I left for a whore who whines if he talks to another girl?
Why does he stick with a crazy bitch who freaks at IM conversations with a girl FRIEND?
Why do boys chase after the girls they can't get?
Why do boy go for the girl who clings and is so very possessive?
The only reasoning I have is,
They want their ego boosted.
A girl who needs them, clings to them,
Freaks out over them talking to other girls,
Means she wants them.
I think it's pathetic.
You can have friends of the opposite gender.
I'm sorry I've actually managed to gain some self identity,
I'm sorry I don't need a boy to hold me up.
I'm sorry I've worked hard for this confidence,
I'm not about to give it up.
Still, I'm lonely.
Why have I never had a boyfriend?
I admit, part is my fault, I did get wound up in the wrong guy...
Still... Where are the others?
How do bitches get five different guys vying for them?
Yea, this is whiny, emo, teenage girly,
But still, I'm just very very frustrated,
And well currently being exposed to reminders right now.
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| How far will I go to make this feel right?
"Come home."
I have to fix this on my own.
And replace my heart
cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us
end.
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